I did something this past weekend that instigated
sympathetic smiles and questions of concern from many of my friends. It’s something that an increasing number of
people around my age are doing for various reasons. Some of my friends are even doing it. Does it sound like I’m about to say I’m dabbling
in hard drugs or getting engaged?
Because I’m not. My life’s not that exciting. I just moved back home.
Let me provide some background: my university is
conveniently located in my hometown.
Freshman year, I lived in the dorms so I could get the quintessential
college experience of living in a shoebox and sharing community bathrooms with
girls who leave masses of hair in the sinks and getting slammed with the
pungent smell of Thai fusion pouring through the vent right outside your door
from the restaurant in the basement. I
wanted that. And I’m glad I did, because
it taught me some solid life lessons.
Plus, if you’re dorm-mates with one of your best friends from high
school and still consider each other one of your best friends by May, then I’d
say that’s a pretty reassuring sign.
So I lived on campus freshman year, but if I’m being honest,
I went home pretty much every weekend.
Sure, I guess I had a valid excuse as I lugged my overflowing
collapsible hamper on Friday evenings to my dad’s car parked in the visitor’s
spot outside my dorm. Community
laundering sucks, and I hate wasting precious quarters (for real, I will park
half a mile away and walk rather than pay a meter downtown). But I’m going to call out freshman-year
Courtney right now and say that she was homesick and the thought of spending a
whole weekend in the shoebox made her freshman-year heart seize up a little
with panic.
Freshman year ended and so did my residency on campus. My overflowing collapsible hamper and my
polka dot comforter were moved back to my parents’ house. Truthfully, I don’t remember too much about
living at home sophomore year, which I’m just now realizing. It must not have been too bad then. But by the end of the year, I knew I had to
move out again for the sake of everyone’s sanity. I signed a lease for a duplex with my
freshman roommate (I mean if it works, don’t fix it) and one of our mutual
friends for junior and senior year. And
it felt right. It was finally my place – well, our place. Maybe it’s just
me, but living in the dorms feels a bit like staying at a really, really
prolonged summer camp. But in this
duplex, I was paying rent and utilities.
I was checking the grown-up mail addressed for me at my new address
(note: grown-up mail loses its novelty very quickly). I was buying my own groceries. I was coming and going at whatever time I
felt like, and didn’t have to report to anyone.
Usually I would drive the fifteen minutes to my parents’ house on
Sundays for a couple of hours to see my family and the dogs, but that was
it. Then senior year ended and I spent
the summer in downtown Kansas City living with another of my best friends as we both did
internships at a public accounting firm.
As far as summers go, it was a great one. The independence was exhilarating.
The independence was also short-lived, as evidenced by my
current situation: sprawled on my parents’ leather couch in the sitting room
flanked by a fluffy white dog and a fluffy black dog. I woke up about an hour ago in my old room
under the old polka dot comforter. I
poured some cereal and drank some coffee, neither of which I bought. It still feels a bit odd, like I’m a guest
here staying indefinitely, encroaching on the good grace of my parents.
The reason why I’m back is because I have one more year of
school for my Master’s degree, and then I’ll be moving back to Kansas City to
start work full-time. The lease on the
duplex ended last month, and the majority of my friends has graduated or will
be graduating in December. Plus, it
makes sense financially. This way I’ll
be able to save up a little money before it all goes to paying for inflated
KC real estate.
So why am I writing about this? Do I sound like one of those entitled girls
on the show Girls? The ones whose parents pay for everything
while they work unpaid internships in New York City? I hope not.
If anything, I’m partially writing this to remind myself that I have
literally no acceptable reason to bitch about my current situation. After all, as soon as I turned 18 my parents
could’ve been like, “Uh, byeeee. Take
out loans and figure out life yourself.”
A lot of parents do this and the kid usually turns out fine, really fine
actually. But my parents are sacrificing
the peace and the space that they so
deserve after raising two daughters for most of their married life by letting
me live here one more year. I’m also
reminding myself that since this is the last time I’ll be living with them (in
the same house and in the same town), I need to cherish it. When my mom asks me if I have plans for later
and if I’ll be home tonight, I’ll do my very best to not make a bratty comment
about her needing to know my whereabouts at all times. When my dad sees me opening mail and asks,
“Fan mail from some flounder?” in his Bullwinkle impression for the millionth
time, I’ll do my very best to not roll my eyes.
Because my parents are freaking saints, and I don’t deserve to be living
in their home expense-free at age 21, but they’re letting me. There are definitely some things that will
take some acclimation, like living with the wallpaper/paint combo that
16-year-old Courtney thought was a good idea.
But I will be appreciative for this year with the parents and the
puppies I love. And just a heads up: if
you are my friend and live in Columbia, you’ll probably be seeing me a lot at your place.